Joe Rogan Experience #1092 — Mary Lynn Rajskub Transcript

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0:00 Anything. Anything. Or pronounced it right? I don't know. mean that means i was doing performance art and people were laughing. But I came in the back alley for everything for comedy I didn't identify with that I'm audition ready today, by the way. I don't find you awkward. My mind just went to an Instagram app. Oh oh that was creep-tastic in my own mind

3:32 Yeah. yeah hang out or be friends yeah till the store you know that's such an interesting little community And there's no conflicts. Yeah. It wasn't really the comedy store either. She gave me a spot. for whether or not knowingly allowing them to profit that should have been kept inside the club. holy we had they'd call me up to tell me they essentially in this long roundabout way were

7:06 This isn't just a small thing. All right. That's who you make money off. Did he ever acknowledge it that he did it? Is it insane? It's his company. That's about a grande. Coffee's'm gonna do it if it's a grande coffee yeah that's about a grande coffee's worth of caffeine but it's strong no I gotta go workout I gotta go on your isolation tank find yourself I just found myself

9:05 different and everyone was critiquing it in a different way and none of it made sense to me. that's a pretty open-ended description, There was the guy that like taped his genitals to the side and put on Yes. we weren't where she was doing the performance, I think she just was collecting the butter pieces and crawling. That he may or may not have made the jump.

12:06 No, you bake it in the machine. Half of us get it. That was one of my. Why? I mean, which was very real for me. It was like bossing people around. or snippets of conversation that I had heard, But my commitment level was so high that the fact that it didn't make any sense That doesn't make any sense. and how did it lead to actual stand-up stand-up?

16:06 that looked like I did. So I'd go to bars for this open mic and there'd be, you know, like a transvestite who was semi homeless, but was, you know, made up who was like reading her poetry. versus what they were really saying like oh that they know how to speak Because there was room for mistakes. Right. Oh, you mean because they're making money and no one else is making money?

18:34 You mean like 25 bucks? percentage it's really only the car like going back to that argument from the Oh, that's interesting. 15 people. Fine. I'm not telling them what to do or telling anybody who performs what to do. martin's book where he's where he made that choice and again very different time very different scene i didn't not quite know what i was saying so you know in the past four years was when i did the

21:34 I was so organic that now I'm finally getting some structure. overly dramatic but comedy kind of saved you performing yeah because i just was really um Like what is your real feelings on things? way more guarded and protected and way more insecure because I hadn't answered those questions. I've talked about this before, but I would like talking to a bank teller.

23:58 this big room full of people, And I taught at some other places, some other gyms and stuff. For sure. and then we'd give a speech afterwards, We never trained that way. So it was just relationship stuff. But, um. um hey guys how about when we hit that block we don't really do that am I excited and that's what uh it's cool yeah you know what comedy has taught me one really important

26:18 It can shift in a day or two. And then I got burnt out once, maybe like five years ago. so i was missing like the camaraderie aspect of it and i just finished a special and i just didn't want to do anything for a while i wanted to chill and so Like your comedy radically varies, or do you always get out of it through performing? The way she did it, it was so entitled.

28:51 seen you yeah and then i said that this is the part like this lady interrupted me um i said you I'm the wrong dude to save the world. what i'm that was tense yeah like where you're of, I think what I'm... I was tense. with a lot of fucked up things happened. It was like weird shit with friends and a couple of weird business things. See, I'm going to say something outrageous.

30:56 But I was really upset. Like, two things. loving loving and kind of like you know you can feel it whereas and you know there's a lot of but I was like, whoa, what's up with that dude? There's no way around it. the future is masculine but opposite. the future is feminine is is the problem with that statement The future is feminine is What's up No, it's silly.

34:09 I moved to L.A. in 94, and I was in San Francisco for a couple years before that. it yeah Cobbs was a little strange big ceiling it's so big and the people are way back there that it would be packed out i don't know maybe you like it if you pack it out and they're there and it was this tiny little club, and then Tom Sawyer, the guy who ran it, the way.

37:04 high in this place. and it was the first time I was going on the road But then when they got on the stage, So I'm like trying to do comedy. hi, Like we came to see you and I, And I had this whole other world of comedy and then I would go into my stuff. That's my stuff about my life and my personal life and you adjust to it. So I would do the 24 stuff and then I would go into my

39:32 I'm still hoping for a career in comedy. the guy who's out of his mind on drugs going you're not funny and i'm like you know that this she doesn't get it, a fun transition though This is just too crazy. It's too weird. I it i mean it sucks but i love it it's awesome but it took me a while to realize like oh you like that like I like a certain amount of suffering

41:52 a dining room table for 10 and like this big, the pain of that whatever whatever i'm just not being comfortable but also because it's in contrast that's what I do in the morning. And you're in like a shitty hotel Everybody's got this look on their face I don't even remember what city it is. that's inherent right seems like a good It wasn't his idea.

45:34 I'm not going to do it justice. he bought it and then after the show he won he showed me i don't know what's wrong with me Because that's the weird thing, too. Yeah. But what can you do? There you go. And i'm happy for you was it's always weird when you're a comic too and you're or you're What? I think that show... But that's also the beauty of the store because you're like, oh,

49:51 Oh, yeah, I told you. I don't need to talk to anybody or go anywhere or do anything like I'm done like that's my nature that's what I fight with what brings you back And then 24 again comes on. Yeah, they did it with a whole new cast. You promoted it great for Kiefer Sutherland. Yeah, people get angry when you redo something. That's my take on it. I do.

52:08 You lifted me up from the depths. You know? But for right now. My brain just has to be constantly overrun with things to think about and do. get it to run hills and do jujitsu and yoga and burn that motherfucker out and my attitude is very different too. and that guy came into the bathroom when I was in there you totally pulled like someone else so it was kind of going around and then i ran into you and i was like yeah that just

55:18 I like this. This is a real creep Like, that's my avoidance tactic. She doesn't react. Like, yes, you can listen to it. Totally. to be better but god it's so hard because you're right you want to avoid it you want to go to that bed it's right finally had to go and get the like twice a week but when they tested it it was like everything Yeah. And it's like a little cocktail of like all the things,

59:51 She'd like wake up with puffy eyes Oh, okay. Am I making this up? And then they had a fucking boom right in the thigh. I'm like, no one was listening to me. Is my throat going to close up? Tinny and trebly. That's interesting. I liked it. What do you got? It was awesome. I liked it. I would Wow. because it's like 250 degrees below zero. And one of them is this stuff.

1:03:57 So noradrenaline, it makes you feel so good. But did you call it a protein? And that response sort of invigorates your Yeah. So I have to go back to the 1920s. Because I've been through everything already. and I'm so comfortable right now. You push yourself. was like how do they choose how do you choose is just someone who is what if you have the natural

1:07:57 He's just a genetic You're like, I get it. the whole thing's crazy and was run by a dictator forever and they had some of the best athletes in the world in boxing in Just imagining that this guy went through that. Like, oh, Jesus. and amazing but through my own life it's like oh i can be not comfortable. And that's why it seems like a contradiction, but it's not.

1:10:18 Thing it was you know, the messaging was try to get by try to try to get some shitty job you know it wasn't um You're not really... about, like, bombings and good sets and bad sets I feel super fortunate, you know? it all man you can't don't pretend you're above all it's ridiculous you do Like, doing it occasionally every now and then is fun. You have 100 years if you're lucky.

1:12:55 I'm like, people don't die until much later. Like I can remember seeing him dancing to Billie Jean and like how kind of Maybe you should introduce him to that movie, that documentary. And how many years was he doing that for so sad not very haunting voice. It's very strange. Like we played some of the, there's only a few recordings of actual castratos

1:15:03 they did to Michael. They did it through chemicals. They chemically castrated him. The doctor said they did to Michael they did of the jackson five when he was a baby and that was part of what was great about him was like oh Like, you're Michael. him being castrated or like tabloid eats, the sun and that kind of stuff. Are they the same? Yeah, well.

1:17:38 Like, human nature. Well, It just doesn't seem like a man's voice. But he wasn't building a dancer. He was built like a stick. You know it was a very very thin guy Is there anything you'd like to talk about? Uh. Good reason. Mm-hmm. and saw what it was, What was the no? I have a bit about it. I don't think they'll be parking at the march. And then I saw the women that did it and they talked about being in this crowd and how uplifting it was.

1:22:42 Can't think about it anymore. It doesn't mean you're a hypocrite. into the 600,000 that were marching but I don't think you're a hypocrite. gets people to watch, So ultimately, it's almost like what we were talking about before. These uncomfortable moments forces these conversations we have to address psych medicines we have to address how many of these people whether it's

1:25:48 not doing that, but it is a factor. There's a factor that people aren't taking into consideration mentally ill well what the fuck defines mentally ill if they're on psych medication they're all on pharmaceutical drugs companies have known for years there's real effects to those things again Now, how many of these people are taking medication because they really need it?

1:28:00 Don't blame mental illness. Like men, like when we look like mass shootings is not just, if you want to take credit for the good things that men have done, you have to take credit for all the war. We have to figure out what the fuck is it? that doesn't want their rights to be infringed? Or are you going to attack the group of people that are actually shooting these people?

1:30:14 and fight for all these things but how do we fix you know the one guy who's the his brother was they see these people having a good time around them and they want to just flip over the game. that are enjoying life. How do we change that theme? How is that possible? He should be in jail. a bad job of it they're incapable of doing a good job of it they're too fucked up they're too fucked

1:33:12 Fucking men. women and they're not they're not raised correctly and then they didn't go on a beneficial path shotgun and go out with a bang there's a lot of people that think like that. They just don't have the courage to do it you didn't think well of me or or of me i did you know i never felt like i was just intimidated by That's pretty silly. Too much?

1:36:20 I think I could have the material I want fairly within the next six months, Yeah, definitely. my manager at the time i think tried to sell it on a high level. And this whole time I was like, I should have just done it myself. maybe it's for the best because you know once i do that then i'm really out there as that it might you've got to spend a lot of money and hire a crew

1:38:30 Did he say that he did one that someone fucked up Someone funny. Did you do yours yourself yourself I did one of them myself yeah I know I've done two of them two of them myself yeah um but the best was last year Not too long. bitches and their scented candles they're always like smell this try these sheets uh guys take a that's what I heard and ideas

1:40:03 how Amazon's A lot of places for you, Mary Lynn. and claw your way back up to the top of the hill. Because if it's stuff that I still like, I'll pull it up. I would be standing there at the comedy store like... How dare. yeah caffeine in yeah I'll go A bunch of sugar? I'll do a shot of espresso. Like you seem like more empowered by this. Such a strange thing.

1:43:36 Fighting sincerity. You just zone out. when i was on news radio when i tried to get on a pilot so bad yeah go on when it was smooth great you know maybe till the next morning and then i then it starts all over again then you You can always enjoy those naps. I loved it so much. You don't know how to write. The voice in my head, once I got there, it was delightful.

1:46:24 Well, that room in particular, that set, I hate to say this, but that was pleasurable. I make people put their hands up. job have to clean your room it's like those things like gotta brush your teeth I don't want to go You save it. You don't really. Yeah, I mark them. I edit the name, see at the bottom. How do you know which one to go back to for stuff? I look for the date. You don't really.

1:47:51 how do you remember I know when something happened. Yes. Like how you've had to speak clearly, do all these things. out there. maybe you can just write all on stage. something, the better you're going to get at it. If you're a guy, like say if you're a bowler and have friends and don't have a feedback and don't have those like tendrils of like being able to

1:50:33 And if you're a person who's been living your life bit of that. That was his first time running. Because he played it for it. 100. and turned around I'm going to change my life. oh, that guy who is really good at this thing or that guy who's really mentally tough You fail. I realize don't do that anymore. Write it down. with music with with everything and to recognize that that's your choice yeah if i think of myself

1:54:07 So like at 11, you're like, well, I can't completely go do something else. So I really was just. Who's a pretty girl? What is that? good luck you know like what why right why did i just feed that monster yeah it's just a common We were talking before the podcast about yoga but I did nine fucking days of yoga in a row to end it. It just seems too extreme.

1:56:54 It's not easy to carve out an hour and a half of fucking sweating your dick off in this hot box. I made myself do it too. oh i comb my hair oh i write oh i get up and i run an aisle i i get up and i lift weights for And lifting weights is... If you do like squats and stuff like that, because your legs get like super warmed up Yeah. Oh my gosh, I'm going to leave here today going, I got a podcast, I got a special, and

1:59:46 Thanks.